Why I, a social networking hater, still keep sending out messages

I find that posting on social networking sites has become a chore.
No, to be honest - I don't like social networking in the first place.

Since I was 20 years old, I have been somewhat doubtful about social networking communication.
I thought it was an "imaginary world" there.
Submissions that sparkle and appear to be fulfilled.
A pseudo-satisfaction that seems to be fulfilled for a moment but quickly disappears.
I feel that just by creating the illusion of "connection," the true loneliness is rather deepened.

SNS may have fundamentally changed the essential form of human communication.
The exchanges that take place on the other side of the screen are light and flimsy to no end.
I was always puzzled by this "thinness" and kept some distance from it with a sense of discomfort.

Still, I have my "reasons" for using social networking sites.
Because I have a duty to protect my family and keep them happy.
We need to make our work and activities known and reach those who need it.
That's the reality.

But -
I'm still tired of forcing myself to keep posting series or fitting myself into a "typical" form.
Social networking shouldn't be something you keep up just for the sake of duty.

From now on, I will try to "weave" my posts one by one.
There is no need to stick to a series.
Express your thoughts, ideas, and feelings honestly at that moment.
There is no need to feel that you have to create "special content" just because it is a social networking service.
Rather, I leave it as it is, as real as I was at the moment I thought of it.

For me, social networking sites are already "works of art.
It's more like a "diary" or "letter" that I record for myself, not for anyone else's eyes or evaluation.
I don't care if no one receives it. I just want to leave something that I am satisfied with.

I will not hide from now on all the loneliness and discomfort I feel on social networking sites.
Loneliness may be there to share with someone, or
by expressing our true feelings, someone may quietly resonate with us in the distance.

SNS may be "evil". But you can decide how to use it.
While wavering between duty, responsibility, and my own sensitivity,
from now on, I will send out messages one by one as if I were spinning.
I think this is the "honest communication" I can do now.